August Motivation

I wish that for a day you could get inside my head and hear all the ideas I have, all the motivations, all the thoughts and dreams. It's insane to think what I would be doing if I went after each of these thoughts the way that I aim to in my head. I'll get such a streak of motivation when I'm at a safe distance from the moment. I'm talking about that moment to strike. I can make plans for tomorrow or next week and be safe, because it is not yet that moment to strike.

However, once that moment comes I freeze. I start to think of every reason not to. What can I do to change that? I've been fighting it for years and the last couple have seen some real improvement.

Lately I've been trying to be more of a leader amongst my groups of friends. Normally if I want to hang out with people I wait for one of the group leaders to tell me we are going to. Now I'm looking for things that I can bring to the table. I'm not looking to be the "go to guy" each time, but I am also not wanting to always sit around for someone else's motivation. I'm looking for my own.

I think I've started to find it too. I started to search things I like and really start to remember the things that I enjoy. Your own enjoyment is a great motivator. I used to go to horse races as a kid, for example. I found that to be a really interesting thing. I don't know of any of my friends having gone to a horse race. This idea intrigued me. It felt fresh. It felt new. I started to get an almost euphoria in my head, an excitement in my legs ready to jump out there and chase that motivation. I've read about this in psychology books, this fight or flight kind of response. The blood in your body starts to move to the extremities ready to attack. I'm ready to run towards this motivation. I'm ready to fight for this motivation.

I'm looking to bring that moment closer. I'll be able to look back at today being the beginning of this new motivation. Everything I've done up to this point has prepared me for that moment to strike. Each step closer to that moment will fill me with excitement that calms my nerves. I'll see the moment and think "YES!" I'll know when I'm ready and I will achieve some glorious results.